3 Years Gone By
As I looked back through the archives I saw so much. I saw my thoughts, feelings, dreams, heartache, love, disappointments, achievements, and confusions. I saw hope, acceptance, popularity, a bit of smut thrown in here and there, jokes, cheers, jeers, wishes, laughs, and tears. All of that was spilled into thousands of words, hundreds of pages and some pictures. All for the whole world to see.
Then there are the "in-betweens"...things in this blog of mine, that are read, but not with your eyes. Things that have nothing to do with what is written on the pages, but what is in them. There are also things in here that only a precious few can see, feel and understand.
Thinking back to the beginning, I remembered for what purpose I started this. It not only made me laugh, but also think WTF? This is not exactly what I had in mind when I first started writing in this space. But then again, is anything ever EXACTLY as we plan? It sure has seen many transformations.
I have used this space as a sounding board, a mirror, a gathering spot, a private place to store precious things. It has been a place where I have made friends, found people like me, and a place where some of the connections made will last a lifetime.
This space has had make overs, and a name change. It has had followers, stalkers, and people who just stumbled into here. Some have stayed, some have gone, and some I will never see again.
This space has had music, and videos. It has touched on politics, wars, natural disasters, awareness, violence, tolerance, people helping people, people needing people, world events, and events closer to home.
My oh my, where we started, where we have been, and the things we have seen together. Through it all, I just wanted to be real and true to myself. For the most part, that is what this jumble of words is. I have things I am proud of in here, and some things that make me cringe. There are things I have never told anyone but have been written here.. Some of it I now read and think "if only I had....".
This old blog of mine reminds me of life. Ever changing, never knowing where it will turn next, some things planned, and some things very unexpected. It's messy at times, and clear as blue sky at other times. It has the good, the bad, and the ugly all rolled up in one.
I don't know where this is going now, or even if I will continue to write here. It sure is hard to walk away from something that holds inside so much of who and what I am. I'm not even sure if I could ever walk away from this.
So many unknowns, but I do know this...This blog has been on hell of a ride and I wouldn't change a thing. Thanks to all of you that have taken part in this ride. You all, and what you have given and taught me are the best part of this thing I call my blog.
Love, Chris
Labels: finding Me, Friends, Just Me




